Sounds like you might be getting burned out. You have said things like, "I've been unhappy for a while now. This drama causes me to feel like I hate my job,I just want to go off on them but can't, I'm unhappy, it sucks, it's exhausting and frustrating, most of my anger is in the morning when I have to deal with the preschool, this hear has been so bad, none of mine listen, I resort to start yelling, I don't know if it is the hatred of being in the preschool room or general burn out.

There is such as thing as caregiver fatigue. Please look for something else. You sound really unhappy with your current position. It is not fair to you or the children. You deserve to be happy. Please do not open your own childcare right now. While you may lessen coworker drama, the stress of being alone with kids of mixed ages would be very difficult, I think, until you recover from this burnout. Please look for another line of work before it has a negative impact on your health.

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