Thank you ALL for the WONDERFUL replies! I am so thankful for the support. Just to be able to admit that I am struggling helps
I am going to read and re-read these things. That way I can figure out the best solution for me and my family. 1st my sister is going to have another baby in december and she will then become a SAHM. So my nephew (who I watch for free and who is a new one year old (and sweet but lots of work) will be leaving so that will help. i am also going to get rid of the school age family. That will cut my hours back by an hour which will give me about 3 more hours a week - and more sleep!
Also, I have an assistant who comes from 2:30 till 4:30 on Tuesdays so that I can pick my daughter up from school that day. I have asked her to stay an extra half an hour that day till my last child is picked up. That way I can take my little boy and pick up my daughter and we can spend the afternoon together
I have more plans in the works too. I am starting to feel this may be managable
