Originally Posted by Blackcat31:
Speaking from experience, it's something those of us left behind will never get.
It simply isn't something our logical thinking processes can truly comprehend.
^^ One of the hardest but most valuable lessons life has taught me.
There have never been truer words.
Our very small community has faced 5 suicides in 5 months, and my own mother attempted to take her life in January. Two of the suicides were brothers, and uncles of one of my DCB's. One was a distant cousin of mine. One a close family friend.
You can't always see their struggle. They may even be getting help. In my mother's case she knows exactly what to say and to whom to make it seem like she is working through things and taking the steps to get better, but she really isn't. Yesterday was exactly 5 months since her suicide attempt and she sent my sister an end of life statement text. I still have days that are spent playing phone tag with relatives and psychologists.
I do not understand her reasoning. I do not understand why she is putting on a show of a healthy life but not putting in the effort. But, I also know that I can not fix it for her, or even try to fix her.